Don’t you wonder what my lips are hiding
When I press them together and I draw them tight?
What’s behind my eyes when I blink too slowly?
Why I’m suddenly willing to shut out the light?
I don’t care what you say when I cannot see you
I don’t care what you think when you are alone
You don’t want me, it’s plain, and I do not need you
Simply seems like a’wasting the time we’ve done
Do you believe that I bear you little malice?
That I don’t want to hurt or to be hurting?
All the same, oh my dear, this is what I wish for—
I want you to love me and I want you to leave.
If this is the part where you say a harsh word
Then this is the part where I speak back five
Call it fate or freedom, regret or reflex
That we entwined our lives just to watch them unwind
And the spool that turns is of petty proportions
The littlest gestures, the shortest words
The flurries of fury, the currents that underlie
The indifferent faces we show the world.
And if this is a role, I will make my excuses
If this is a farce then I’ll say goodbye
We may need a script to speak the truth, but
We don’t need a stage to tell each other lies
Do you believe that I bear you little malice?
Neither can I, even as I speak!
Oh my love, my dear, I got what I wished for
I got to hurt you like you hurt me
Oh my love, my dear, all of what I wished for
Turns to dust in my mouth as I watch you leave.
This '71 LP from Yup’ik singer-songwriter John Angaiak, reissued by Light in the Attic, is a must for lovers of spare, tender folk music. Bandcamp New & Notable May 21, 2016
Jurado's upcoming LP completes the trilogy of releases built around a character who has had to disappear from society. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 18, 2015